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June 16, 2009

Is ‘God’ the dark matter of spirituality?

Filed under: 1 — Tags: , , , , , , — archisgore @ 4:13 am

Whenever physicists can’t explain something, they just call it “dark matter” or “dark energy” and assign it properties they need to explain away their theories (well, that’s a gross exaggeration, and certainly not a criticism). Mathematicians come up with “imaginary numbers” (at least mathematicians have the guts to use the adjective imaginary directly.)

I don’t make any claims as to the existence or non-existence of God here, so don’t degenerate the comments section with those issues. The purpose of this post is to explore the very instinctual and primal necessity to believe that God exists. In fact, it is my contention that most people need to believe in God, rather than the other way round through a leap of faith, as most religions would have you believe. Heck, we desperately need to know God exists, because if he doesn’t, all hell would break loose.

To give you a context of what I expect to learn from your feedback, I am looking for answers to how one may truly become a God-believer without needing to, and if, assuming God doesn’t exists, then how do we reconcile the conflicting notions of fairness that I’ll come to below. Basically, what is it that keeps us from falling into complete anarchy?

We live in a world of symmetry and opposites (no, this isn’t turning into a Dan Brown-ish post). Ever since we remember, we are brought up in a profit-loss environment with an ideal zero-sum game. Basically here’s how our brain is programmed to look at the world:
1. All things being equal, the world is zero-sum. We give something, and we get something back of equal worth. We work for money. We pay money for services or goods.
2. Given a choice, and following our natural instincts (I can’t be sure whether these are natural instincts or something we were programmed with as children), we aim to upset the balance in our favour. We aim for “profit” which is a way of saying, an attempt at gaining a return worth more than what it was given in exchange for.
3. When we lose something more than what we get in return, we call it a “loss”. Loss hurts.
4. To keep the system in check, and to prevent a descent into complete anarchy or returning to our savage roots, civilization prides itself on it’s systems of rules and procedures to prevent (2) and (3) happening and to aim to keep the system at (1) as far as possible.
5. In a profit-loss scenario, the loser, blames the profiteer for being unjust or immoral or whatever. The culprit is quantifiable, identifiable and observable.

When it comes to feelings however, we have no one person to blame. We all try to be good people (yes, there may be bad people which I’ll come to later, but I don’t think you’ll find anyone who is truly convinced they are bad themselves.) Due to the Zero-Sum mentality above, we expect others to be good to us in return. This is compounded by the fact that faiths, religions and cults all have some justification for why we should behave morally and ethically.

However this seldom happens. We do get hurt. We feel betrayed, hurt or treated unfairly. And yet, there are no laws to combat or prevent unethical behaviour – since laws depend heavily on “intent” and in such cases, there is little chance of proving the intent to “hurt someone”.

So we end up in a place where the theories don’t fit:
1. The world is based on a Zero-Sum game, or so we’ve been programmed. Ideally, there is no profit, no loss.
2. The world doesn’t seem to work on a Zero-Sum principle. Sometimes we experience only loss – and if it was emotional loss, than all the worse because it is unquantifiable and unmeasurable. Or at least, we don’t see a civilized system of rules and regulations to give us justice when we experience loss.

How do we reconcile the two conflicting ideas above? Well, before that let’s attack why we need to reconcile the ideas above. For one, we all like to believe we have a purpose in life. If the first concept were to be shattered, the world appears to be a much crueller and harsher place than we want to believe. There seems little point to keeping up pretenses of morality and ethics. We would resort to anarchy and selfishness, and yet something conflicts inside us, because even this vision of the world seems equally frightening.

The reality is, the only vision of a tolerable world is one where everyone (at least, everyone except us) is good, and honest and ethical and moral. A view where only we are good, and the world is bad doesn’t fit. A view where we are as bad as the rest of the world doesn’t fit either, because well, frankly, we want peace and happiness. Getting a green signal to breaking morals and ethics isn’t very reassuring so long as everyone else gets that green signal too – we all know there will be stronger people, and a survival-of-the-fittest world would inevitably be horrible for us. For closure, I have to mention one other view appeals a lot more – a view where everyone else behaves ethically and morally, while we have a green signal to break ethics and morals ourselves – basically, given a choice, we want spiritual/emotional profit the same as (1). However, in a perfectly good world, perhaps there would be no point or purpose to breaking ethics and morals anyway, so this view may be redundant….. wait… isn’t this what we define as “Heaven”? We’ll come back to this in a moment.

So there we have it – the reason we want to reconcile conflicting observations.
a. We want spiritual and emotional profit
b. We have no way of knowing how to ensure it – the rules seem very arbitrary. But we already know a system in place where we can ensure profit – system (1) – the Zero-Sum game. So we want to somehow map spiritual gain into a system we are familiar with.

Let’s get back to how we end up trying to reconcile it. We begin with the assumption that (1) applies to (2) without first considering whether it does or not (except Gautam Buddha – the only person who actually even questioned whether (1) applies to (2) to begin with) So beginning with the assumption that spirituality is a Zero-Sum game, we now need to account for the times when we were good to people, or tried to be decent human beings, and yet we get treated unfairly and unethically. We behave in a remarkably scientific manner than most would like to admit. The way Mathematicians came up with imaginary numbers, and Physicists came up wtih Dark Matter and Dark Energy, we came up with God. (No, this still isn’t going in a Dan Brown-ish direction.)
We want to be good people, and we want the world to be good, or rather, we want to be good people because we want the world to be good – it’s the only way we are assured of happiness. So there we are, behaving morally and ethically, and we get hurt.

The system makes perfect sense now. Just as we have judges and rules and laws for our materialistic possessions, we now have a God for our emotional and spiritual ones. As with Imaginary Numbers, we can now assign whatever unexplained properties to God by simply saying, “Let us define God as having x, y and z properties. Now, using God in equations (1) and (2) we can reconcile them.”

As I wrote at the beginning, I’m looking for your thoughts, ideas and other viewpoints on this. Furthermore I want to know how I may be convinced God exists, especially when I have nothing to gain or lose from his existence. If he doesn’t exist, then I want to know how people reconcile (1) and (2). I want to know what prevents them from breaking every pretense of ethics and morals. Why doesn’t everyone turn into a raving murdering lunatic?

Is anyone of us really God-loving or God-fearing as opposed to being desperately God-needing?

(For the purposes of clarity, when I say “God”, I mean the various super-natural concepts around the world, or the concept of a “Higher Power”)

June 11, 2009

Middle Class Morality

Filed under: Uncategorized — Tags: , , , , , , , , , , , — archisgore @ 1:45 pm

A phrase coined by Bernard Shaw and voiced by his character Alfred Doolittle in Pygmalion. Alfred Doolittle is arguably the most loved character from Pygmalion, and every sentence he utters in the play could lead to lengthy blogs in their own right, but this one phrase has had the most impact on me personally.

I’ve already explored questions such as what it is to be a good person, and once defined, why anyone would want to become one. Entire religions, cults, and societies have been formed upon these questions and Alfred Doolittle’s five-minute stage time answers them all so elegantly.

Countless Matrix fans are already familiar with the concept of control in society. Whether real or not, we live in a world with psychological barriers meant to control us. Religions, customs, traditions, social acceptance are all imposed by a few upon the masses in an effort to contain them and control them. Generally speaking a selfish person is good for society. I know this sounds a bit counter intuitive, but really think about it. So long as a person is trapped in the selfish loops of their lives, they are harmless. They may be irritable and frustrated, but they are generally so involved in their own little world that they can be manipulated quite easily. Just imagine what would happen if majority of the population had their lives as relatively easy as people in my situation do – bills get autodebited, household stuff happens on autopilot, and get lots of free time on their hands – it’s a nightmare for the ruling classes – all of a sudden people would have loads of time and energy to demand better roads, better governance, and so on – in short people would become selfless.

And yet, due to industrialization and globalization, that’s exactly what did happen – in Europe and America a century ago, and in India over the last decade. The majority of the world’s population now lives in cities. Most services are provided by private companies – meaning better customer care and relatively easier lives for the masses (anyone remember the days when the government had a monopoly on telecommunications?) That can’t be good – people suddenly start caring about shit like “Human Rights”, “Budget Allocations”, “Corruption”, and all that kinda stuff. These aren’t people you can push over, because they’re the so-called ‘working class’ who use the word ‘deserve’ a lot more than is comfortable. These people work hard, and hence they deserve certain things and won’t back down until they get them. These people are in a majority too. These people also believe in notions like “self-respect” and “honour” and “dignity” – so long as these adjectives are applied to them by others.

Enter “Middle Class Morality”. In almost every speech by politians, business tycoons and generally anyone else, we hear the middle classes praised in one form or another – usually with the same adjectives above – self-respect, honour, dignitiy, hard-workers, etc. By creating a society where such adjectives need to be applied by “others”, you create a perfect selfishness loop for people to be involved in and keep busy. Now everyone is trying to gratify themselves by trying to get as many of their peers to apply those adjectives to them, while the peers are also engaged in the converse process. By tying these virtues with morality, you have a perfect weapon for manipulation.

As time progresses, whatever problems, issues or squabbles the middle class may have, can be squished with morality – whatever you don’t want them to do, just define it as being things that “bad people do” and you’re all done. Once the middle classes start judging each other’s nobility and self-respect and all that crap based on your definition of what bad people are, you’ll find not one of them will dare have any of their own kind call them “less dignified”. A system of perfect control. Of course, not all morality can be attributed to control – most of it is just plain stupidity. Once you have notions of “more dignified” or “less dignified” (don’t we just love comparisons?), the middle class starts inventing their own definitions and standards to be somehow “more moral” than their peers, who are trying to do the same.

Over time, we find ourselves in a society with a majority so selfish and self-absorbed in non-issues that the minority are left to do what they want and rule the world. I know it’s ironic, but morality is the biggest evil our society could face today. We all live under illusions of being “good people” and “moral people”.

Before ending I will say that to want to be moral and good isn’t wrong, which is why such manipulation is dangerous and requires almost Jedi-like calmness to prevent. It’s very difficult, but equally important, to be able to judge what really is righteous and moral behaviour, as opposed to what is simply being imposed as a system of control.

June 9, 2009

Pygmalion, the movie (1938)

Filed under: Uncategorized — Tags: , , , , , , , — archisgore @ 2:09 pm

It’s hard to come by really good renditions of Shaw’s work – more so in India, and those faithful to him must resort to movies to satisfy our thirst to see remarkable characters engaging in verbal jousting the way only Shaw could have written. Most movies adapted from critically acclaimed works of literature are utter failures – but that’s to be expected because a Novel is not a screenplay. It’s a different medium of expression that requires different artists to get right.

That’s where Shaw and Shakespeare come in – their works are screenplays! It takes some great amount of skill to screw up a screenplay meant for a stage when adapted for a movie, as I would imagine making movies is a lot easier due to the ability to do an infinite number of re-takes.

My Fair Lady was good – in fact it was great. And yet, Pygmalion is a movie even I, a self-proclaimed fanatic of Bernard Shaw, was unaware of. The acting is much better than Rex Harrison and Audrey Hepburn. Colonnel Pickering looks like a real Colonnel. I am unfamiliar with the actors involved in this movie but damn is it good! As I found out later, Shaw won his only Oscar for the screenplay for this movie.

If you’re looking for intellectually stimulating dialogue riddled with sarcasam and sattire, you’re going to love this movie. Though some scenes from the play are cut and new ones added, it doesn’t remove the essence of the play. I do wish the dialog at Mrs. Higgins place between Henry and Mrs. Eynsford-Hills and Ms. Clara Eynsford-Hills would have been kept there – it shows us the true character of Henry at that point when he turns down the advances of Clara. Perhaps a dialogue not very popular, but one of my favourite few lines in the play, second only to Alfred Doolittle’s dialogues.

The one disappointment perhaps, is that this movie is where My Fair Lady borrows it’s ending from – with Eliza coming back to Higgins and he sensing her presense declares, “Where are my slippers, Eliza?”

What I wouldn’t give to see just one rendition of Pygmalion with Julie Andrews playing Eliza Doolittle!

July 10, 2008

My first-hand experience with Microsoft Surface

Filed under: Uncategorized — Tags: , , , , , , , , — archisgore @ 11:26 pm

My friend who works for the Emerging Markets Innovations Group, recently got access to a Microsoft Surface acquired by their team, and I had the previlidge to go use it a bit. I’ve created a few videos, but no time to edit them and post them online. If someone will volunteer to remind me in a couple of weeks, I’ll upload some cool personal demos. With any luck, you should be able to see the Surface in action at AT&T Store. I live in India, so I don’t know whether this is a reality yet.

Anyways, onto the review. The Surface is definately what it claims to be. Perhaps I was a bit disappointed because it was exactly what I saw in the videos (I was expecting to be blown off my feet with some juicy previews, but alas….)

I’m sure everyone reading this has at least a dozen ideas to use the Surface for, but I was impressed at the preview apps that the team has developed. You’ve all seen them – the picture viewer which allows you to flip pictures, and group them and categorize them, and so on. And then there’s the Virtual Earth app which I found to be lacking in thousands of features given the power of the surface (and I’m sure there’s some team hard at work in some deep basement making that a reality).

When you actually touch it, it just brings to light literally thousands of possibilities. You wanna do everything on the surface. Share pictures, play songs, play videos, play games, etc. It’s cool, and it makes you wanna keep on using it.

The one thing that really strikes you when you begin using it are the cool new gestures it supports. It’s not just about multitouch – anyone can write WM_* commands or whatever to give you multiple touch points. What’s really important is how apps leverage those gestures to do cool stuff. Moreover, some of the user semantics have also changed. Instead of files and folders, you deal with visual “bubbles” and “boxes” that you group objects into. You put a bunch of pictures into some kind of a bubble thing that you can move around the screen. You can then scroll through the pictures vertically, or horizontally, or by tag, and so on and so forth. Naturally, the power of WPF comes out when you play multiple videos oriented in arbitrary rotations and dimensions.

Overall, was a great experience. Everyone has to have played with a surface to really feel its power (and some of its limitations). When you check it out, you really understand how tough it must be to put all that in one simple-to-use packaging that you just open up, plug in, and use!

April 27, 2008

Getting a new system up – Pendrive Linux +1, Sify Broadband -10!

Filed under: Uncategorized — Tags: , , , , — archisgore @ 1:18 pm

I bought a new PC recently and thanks to an increased awareness of piracy (and moreover since I work at Microsoft), the dealer gave it to me without even a formatted hard disk. Not having bought a PC in the 21st century yet, I faced quite a daunting challenge – how do I get the damn thing up? Every tool depends on every other tool until you don’t know what to do.

I wanted a system up and running in minutes without hassle and get a basic browser working (I’m going out of town for a couple of weeks vacation), and didn’t want to bother with elaborate setup.

My mind turned to Damn Small Linux – I had used it once before to extricate myself from a major problem. It has a fairly simple process to put itself on a USB drive. However, I found Pendrive Linux which has an even yet simpler process – just extract the zip onto your drive, run a batch file, and it’s ready!

Yes, even though I work at Microsoft – I prefer a small commandline system at home – takes a record five seconds to boot, I use Lynx for most of my browsing, which is downloading e-books from gutenberg, and can play music in the background. When absolutely necessary, X + Xfce (no Gnome/KDE for me, thank you very much), serves very well for movies/tv-programs. (My friends don’t take very kindly to spending a night due to the unreasonably complex nature of every task they have to perform.) But I love it! I’m planning to try a FreeDOS + Arachne combo sometime – if only my videos could be played – then I’d be a complete individual!

My only complaint is that Sify is such a horrible broadband provider – and so very presumptous that I can’t run it on my config – it’s client on Linux (and Windows) positively sucks:
1. It is obsessed with “your safety” and forces you to install an A/V on Windows.
2. It somehow links tracks the firefox process it starts with it’s ads – which if you close, the client crashes.
3. There is no way to automate the damn thing.
4. Requires gtk libraries to run (and links to specific .so files so you have to add some symlinks in /usr/lib to get it working) – no commandline support.
4. Looks plain ugly! Nags me a lot! Windows won’t automatically shut down because the highly concerned Sify client wants you to confirm whether you *really* want to quit – it probably assumes you’ve got a monkey punching keys who might have asked windows to shutdown accidentally.

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